The Dew Is Thick On The Grass
The room is quiet and still. There is no motion visible save that of the flickering light of a candle that darts about with abandon as it holds off the darkness. I sit at my desk with urge to work on a composition but my hands remain in my lap as, at the moment, the topic eludes me. This happens, on occasion, when I am preparing to do any creative writing that requires less left brain and more of the right. When I do such writings one of two things occurs. One is I find myself writing without having to think about it, sometimes before I even realize it and all I need to do is get out of my own way. The other happens when I have been busy and have set aside or carved out time in which case I must “do” something to make or find my way into the piece.
In this composition I will describe the process I go through with the thought of demystifying the process and perhaps stir the same awareness in others. I first touched on this topic in the essay Automatic Writing: Writing from the Inside Out (1). I use some of the same awareness’s for this as I use when I read energy. This applies whether it’s during in person interactions, when I am reading a picture, postings on the net or am checking on people I know before calling them or when thoughts of them become prominent. To help with this I will share one of my experiences with guiding people in developing the awareness to read energy.
At the start of this piece, I mentioned two ways I typically write my essays. Interestingly enough both ways are essentially the same in that I go through the same process in either case. They all start with a strong group of thought forms, ones that I have made important and strengthened over the years, that include my love for writing, contemplating notions, dedication to helping others through sharing what I know and have learned and acting in a fashion that is to the highest benefit of All and so on.
I do this because it is part of what I chose to do years ago and while I have always had what some refer to as a gift the clarity and depth of my intuitions or clairvoyance has benefited as a result. I spoke about the importance of our beliefs and thoughts in terms of our developing our non-rational mind skills (2).
I use the term non-rational mind rather than psychic mind or self though both provide an umbrella term for all aspects of us that are not part of the physical world or its “interface”, the rational mind. I use the term “non-rational” to describe these types of aspects of the self. It is a simple way to view aspects that appear separate from one’s physicality.
Non-rational awareness would include intuition, precognition, telepathy, empathy and so forth. A common schema for the lower non-physical aspects of the self is the aura, which includes the astral, spiritual and mental bodies. Everyone has an aura with the various vehicles; however, possession of these aspects is not the same as awareness of or conscious access to them. Remember, the rational mind exerts almost total control over what we are aware of consciously. Access to the non-rational aspects of our awareness requires a direct channel through our rational mind (such as the gift of sight etc.) or the presence of thought forms for their expression. Without them, one is likely using little of their non-rational awareness.
I also spoke about this throughout the Awakening Our Gifts series including the below passage from part 4, Listening to the Silence (3):
Our non-rational awareness, that part of us not based on thoughts, is not idle. Just as water flows downhill so too does our inner awareness seek ways to break through the iron clad control our thinking mind exerts. Sometimes our intuition is helpful and at other times it just wants to see if we are paying attention. It is not insistent, or demanding so we have a tendency to miss it, to ignore it.
This bundle of thoughts I referred to are, in a manner of speaking, always active “in the back of my mind” churning around on their own accord. Right along with them is my intent, which is that I shall try to always act in a fashion that is in the best interests of all first and foremost and not my own. These thoughts are part of what I have tried to make core beliefs so that they are not easily overridden for personal reasons and include my writing “what will be the right piece at the time”. They are strong thought forms manifested consciously and guided by will therefore they have a significant influence on my non-conscious thoughts. As a result, they need little to no encouragement or reinforcement to go about their business.
The topic I will write about has its source in an intuitive “suggestion” or impulse of one form or another from somewhere. The source is not really a concern as my thoughts have already specified that whatever I get must have certain attributes. Choosing or conscious perception of the topic is a matter of being able to discern that thought as a vibration and then “knowing” that vibration (hence thought or topic) is the right one. There is no fixed definition of what the right piece is; it’s just a way of saying that the piece will be the one that I am able to write about and which is in the highest interests of All at the time I write it and for whomever will read it. What I do know is I do not consciously choose the topic. Sure, I keep a list of possible topics and banter around other ideas in my head without focusing on any one of them. I may even have some notions about what it should be; however, this does not make it the right topic. I have learned to trust that when the right topic comes along I know it.
Of course it helps to be able to discern when your mind, with its relentless need to control, is editing what comes from within and to be able to see through and past it. And by editing I am referring to what our minds do that among other things blocks intuitions from reaching our conscious awareness or "filters" them by "wrapping them in mental constructs" that obscure or distort them. The basis of this editing is the baggage we have accumulated over the course of our life. In an exercise to help improve our honesty I refer to this as the Rational Mind Editor (RME) (4).
It might surprise you to know that most of the time the answer people are conscious of is at least the tenth most honest on the list or lower. The most people might notice of the edit process being some form of hesitation and/or uncertainty. We have hundreds of thoughts during even a brief hesitation. Most of these thoughts happen too quickly to be perceptible. What we notice are those deemed acceptable by the programming of our rational mind. The act of examining our honesty gives a clear signal to our rational mind that we are losing our fear of the truth. This is the first step in changing the programming established by how we have reacted to our experiences.
This is the main problem with hearing our intuition; our minds get in the way. The is not having developed our sensitivity to and awareness of "subtle energies" primarily due to our external focus. Those who can do this either have a natural gift or having developing their sensitivity through various means, which allows them to be more “transparent” in the moment. Those with the gift do not have to train their minds though it can atrophy and like anyone else they need to avoid plugging up their minds with too much baggage. This dulls and distorts the impressions received with the result being loss of sensitivity, misreadings and misinterpretations.
In general we want to reduce how much editing our RME does, this will put us more in tune with both the world around us and ourselves. In terms of perceiving intuitive thoughts or using our natural clairvoyance, it is important to silence the RME as much as possible so we are able to hear and translate the impressions we get. If we don’t do this the RME will interfere with the impressions. As mentioned, this applies to what is received be it from within or without. We can all learn to recognize when we get intuitive impressions from our telepathy or empathy for instance. I’ve spoken with many who were born with the ability to do this and who managed to maintain it as they grew up. Just about every one of them recognizes what is received a different way.
There is no one set way I recognize when my intuition is speaking though it often comes with some physical sensations which I mentioned in the essay Energy Interactions (5):
When I am “prompted” to do something or to speak (something I should pay attention to), I notice it in the lower back part of my neck, where I feel a light, almost imperceptible pinch. It is a sensation that has me wanting to tilt my head back and lower. When my mind is noisy, I can miss hearing it, but not tonight. Besides a lovely evening, it is also a quiet one, and when I was outside earlier, it seemed right to enjoy my time while thinking as little as possible. What the prompt had me do was sit down at the computer and start on this week’s composition.
Now, I still had no idea what I would write about, so I typed what you have read so far and then paused. The next thoughts to surface were why I had started to post and my intent in doing so. I did not start this to journey to get feedback from people, or to explain how I see the world. It was to share what I had learned, knowing that others would find some value in it and benefit from it, as would I.
I often recognize the pinch I mention in the above quote, but there are times when I just go with what I feel and find myself writing without making a conscious choice to do so. The “pinch” comes with a feeling that is hard to describe save to say it is a joyous feeling of connectivity to everything and comes with a profound sense of peace and balance so long as I do not let my thoughts get in the way.
The awareness required to read energy has a lot in common with the awareness one needs to work with energy. When I taught meditation classes I had two primary goals. One was to help people learn to meditate and to guide them through some of the many “acts” one can do in a meditative state. The other was to assist them in developing their sensitivity to and awareness of energy as well as their ability to “extend” their awareness or work with energy beyond their aura.
The reality is that most people do not know how to do this consciously. Remember, we are talking about sensing energy and not moving objects with our mind. Further, it is not something that can be taught, one must learn to do this on their own. You cannot just explain to someone how to feel or perceive energy, or how to work with energy. Then there is the additional component of working to improve one’s ability and it is based being able to focus ones attention and that "energy follows attention". By focus I am referring to discarding irrelevant thoughts (6).
If I elevate my thoughts from the details (the trees) to the high level root concept (the forest) I have reduced the complexity by orders of magnitude. The challenge now lies in determining what the root concepts or constructs are that they all share. If I can "shut down" concerns and thoughts about the root notion then the associated thoughts and feelings will go with it. An example of root construct would be "repose", the idea of resting or being at rest. This simple concept when manifested results in literally of millions of different chairs, couches, beds, love seats, benches and so on. What our minds tend to do is focus on this level with its multitude of possibilities rather than the root level of repose alone.
Simply put we have to let go of what does not matter most of which are ego based. In a way you could say "we give ourselves up". This means letting go of our ego’s as most live primarily through them. Accomplishing this is merely a matter of doing it though it does take time and effort to get good at. The process of reading energy is the same for everyone, what varies is how we perceive this act, and one may even perceive it differently at various times. One person just knows another might get tonal/sound or visual impression and yet another feels the energy, which may be localized in some place in their body.
What is also challenging is extending ones energy as again our minds, or ego’s get in the way. It is one thing to perceive energy around us and quite another to work with energy outside our aura. The most significant hindrance to this is the lack of a belief that one can do it. Sure, many believe it is possible, or perhaps even that they can, but if they are unable to do so it is because they other beliefs at a more root or “higher” level that conflict with it.
I taught meditation and along with it energy awareness and basic energy work. To help people discover their ability in this area I added an exercise into the meditation, though only doing so after a sufficient level of trust had been developed. I built that trust by helping them learn to meditate and by pointing out to them when they shifted in some way such as their level of attention, focus or even their own energy which they could verify.
The exercise itself was one where I would manifest energy in the middle of the circle we formed and they were to describe it. I would start by writing down about half a dozen series of words to describe the energy’s I manifest. I would do this before we began did anything. Initially the words included a shape, texture and colour. Examples would be words such as round, pulsing and orange or triangular, soft/yielding and mauve. We would then begin our meditation so that everyone was as grounded, clear of lower energy and centered as possible. This was followed by a period of stillness to allow the mind to relax. I would then focus my attention to shift the energy in the center of our circle to match the first item on the list.
Their task or goal was to “reach out” in one fashion or another to perceive the energy I manifested and then write what they saw down. I cautioned them not to shift too much out of their current state of mind when they were writing. This in itself was difficult at first.
What I would then do is monitor their energy and state of awareness while they tried perceive what was in the middle of the circle. While I couldn’t tell them how to perceive the energy I could tell them when they did it. You can learn to feel the level at which someone’s attention is focused, the extent of their auras and any movement of energy they directed with their attention.
I would manifest the energy listed in turn and with each they had a few minutes to try to see what was there. I would observe them (well their energy field on several levels), as I had been through the previous meditation sessions, and watched their frustrations build even as their energies dance around and occasional reach out to interact with the “objects” I created. Before proceeding to the next one each of them had the opportunity to describe what they “saw”.
We had a fair degree of openness so no one was shy about speaking, even if was to simply say “I didn’t sense anything” or to express some frustration even though they knew they weren’t being graded and there were no “right or wrong” answers. The idea of no right or wrong answers is something I stress in my classes because when you add this element in you are introducing restricting thoughts. People can easily find themselves wanting to be right and being scared of being wrong and so on.
When they were all done sharing what they perceived I told them what I’d manifested and we’d then talk about it a little more before going on to the next one. They all struggled to varying degrees the first time we did the exercise. Each explained what they tried to do, what they believed they perceived and how and sometimes why they felt they struggled. We discussed it some more and with the exercise over we went back to meditation. I did not share my perceptions of how their energies shifted as they did the exercise that first time. To no one’s surprise few perceived anything remotely resembling what I manifest.
After that first time I did share what I noticed. When I saw them shift or extend their attention and hence energy I would tell them what I saw at that moment I perceived it. By doing this they gradually figured out “what they were doing/feeling/being” and associate that with the outcome I described. So, while I could not tell them how to do it, I could them when they were. We do not need to teach our mind how to perceive and work with energy; we only need train it so that it allows it.
We always followed the same steps as such exercises are hard enough without added uncertainties. Those first few times they were so caught up in the act of trying to extend themselves, and in part feeling bad if they saw themselves as failing at it, that they let their thoughts get in the way. Even with guidance it took time for them to figure out what they were doing that enabled the shifts I perceived. However, it wasn’t long before they started to get one or two right each which was very good considering it was all new to them.
The list changed each time, and as they got better I have would add to the challenge by varying the attributes. For example I’d vary the size or strength of the energy rather than the shape and texture. Eventually the object would move and they’d have to describe its motion or I added an interior energy which meant they had to probe the object and notice variance. Nor would I tell them of this beforehand. When you work with energy you find it comes in countless varieties and so cannot assume anything about it. Instead you must read what is there and not presuppose.
I would continue to tell them when they shifted and after a time some got most and occasionally all correct and I only needed assist those that still found it hard to do. A great many of the students I had in my meditation and energy awareness classes joined simply to learn more about them though after a year or two they went on to be light workers, Reiki Masters or healers or do some other type of energy work. Some did these things part-time as a hobby or for family and friends while others completely changing their occupation and so they could do such work full time.
The act of sensing energy, which is what the basis of the exercise I gave my students, is very similar to what I do to “find” the topic for my essays and then allow the content to flow out. Allowing and then reading ones intuition is very similar to reading external energy in that one must discard the irrelevant to focus their attention and then disconnect from their own wants and desires to allow the intuitions to come through.
A while back, when I chose to work on a composition versus being prompted to or finding myself writing before realizing it, I chose to make mental notes of the process I went through to find the topic and write the piece. I went up to the study to get to work on it and after the piece was complete I wrote about the process itself.
When in this situation, the first thing I do is go through a quick meditation process. I dump as many irrelevant thoughts as I can find while at the same time I ground, clear and center myself. I have no idea what the topic will be so when that is done my next task is to find the topic.
The basic intent behind the topic is already there, I spoke of this near the beginning of this composition. Intent is comprised of a number of elements, and since all of these are “energies” you can look at ones intent as having its own frequencies. I use the plural because it has various aspects. The energy is more like a chord than a single note. It also has with it an element of self separate from mind. I have a feel for these energies as I am familiar with them, though at one time I had to focus a great deal more, sometimes down to each thought I could perceive because I was still creating and strengthening them.
So I have this energy or chord and I strengthen it so it “fills me”. I also add to it by imagining all the people who may read my piece and along with it the thought that whatever I write will be of the greatest benefit to them as a whole. This does not mean I try to picture individuals; I simply have the thought of “all the people who will be affected by this piece” and make it important. We do this by increasing our focus on the thought.
I am not consciously aware of what is everyone's highest good or best interests but do not need to. Adding this thought brings their needs into the mix, so to speak, and they become part of the chord I referred to. When I have the chord and through focus make it stronger I allow my mostly freed up mind to wander over and through open fields of potential.
I do not latch onto any ideas that come to mind; instead I simply try to experience each idea, as a “vibration” rather than a word(s). It is like randomly exploring a great library of ideas, touching each one but never lingering. And remember I am speaking figuratively. The energy of my base intent and that of each idea I touch interact. The reaction is also a vibration and when all three resonates together in harmony, somewhat how striking one tuning forks induces the same vibration in another tuning fork of the same pitch, I have a possible topic.
At this point what I have is a vaguest notion of words, which is more like potentiality rather than actuality. You can imagine this being a vibration that is like a cloud that can but has not yet coalesced into a figure. I explore the vibration more closely and if it is the right idea I find myself translating the energy into a word or phrase, if not I continue to explore.
My efforts are not complete even when I have found the idea with the “right” vibration. A word or even a phrase alone does not describe the topic, but, the topic will be found the same way. The difference this time is I have a new energy to use, namely that energy created by the combination of my intent from before and the idea for the topic. So I renew my search through those fields of potential though this time I am looking for thoughts and vibrations that resonate with the new one. This may seem to be an impossibly complex task but it is not. When they all resonate together their combined energies are like a candle being lit in a dark room. As I continue my "search" each one interacts with this combined energy and when I find another or other thoughts that relate to it I add them to the mix of energy.
In this process I am working solely with thoughts and their energy; however, to write a composition I need words. To get the words I work to partially engage my mind and my my brain will, if my mind is not also busy editing or presupposing, translate the energy into words. As the words flow I begin to type away.
Each idea is like a drop of water. One idea finds and even attracts others and these two a third and these three a fourth and so on until the drops become a stream and the stream a river. The river will flow so long as my energy doesn’t shift and as long as I stay in the river or stream the words come. Should I lose the words for a bit or become distracted it is either because my mind is interfering or I have to stop for some reason. I know when I am distracted or have lost the flow because the energy I feel when I type ceases to match that of the stream. If my mind is interfering I must refocus my attention, remember the energy and use it to rejoin the stream, which remains in place so long as my intent remains. If I have to get up I take a few moments and focus on remembering the energy of the stream I have going. This way I can slip back into that mode when I return be it in a few minutes or hours, the next day or much later.
There are two key elements here, one is the being able to focus on a particular vibration and the other is translating it into words. In both cases I go by feel, the vibration feels right and the word that represents it feels right. You can liken this to whole process to the way we search for a word or there is an idea we feel will solve a problem but while that word or idea is on the tip of our tongue we can’t quite get it out. When we then try to find that word or idea what we are doing in this case is searching our minds for it. If you think about it for a bit you will realize that you are searching for something that matches the feel of the word or idea (as these are also a vibration or energy). When you have found it, you know it and have no doubts at all otherwise you likely found yourself saying “that’s not it”. It is the same way with translating an intuition into words and the same as the process I have described is used by clairvoyants, though they just do it and don’t have to think about how they do it.
I have described the process I go through when I choose to write versus those times I find myself already writing without having to do anything. In the later case instead of me finding the stream or river it finds me. How it actually works can be explained in greater detail than I have gone into here though, quite frankly, it is irrelevant. It is irrelevant because these abilities are inherent in our consciousness. We couldn’t think in words if we didn’t translate our thoughts into words via our brain. The only difference is rather than reading our own energy we may be reading energies that “come to or through us”. All we really need to do is to learn to allow it and the purpose of this composition was to share how I do it and this way paint a picture that you can sink into and flow with.
This is a process artists, fine craftsman, gifted athletes, geniuses and clairvoyants use continually though they don’t think about the process and are not likely aware nor concerned about how it happens. They just know it and trust their instincts, intuitions or even their own minds to do what they do. Yet, this is something we can all learn to do in some fashion or another. We simply need to want and start to do such things as feeling and not always thinking, to be more and do less and to open up to the vibrant world we are a part of.
Do not be afraid to exercise your imagination, to engage your curiosity and to try to see the world differently than you have come to. A simple example would be this: next time you walk in the early morning when the dew coats the grass, instead of heading for your destination or perhaps being concerned about how wet your shoes and perhaps pant cuffs are getting, try to notice how those small and pretty much insignificant drops of dew help cushion your steps as you go...
© 2013 Allan Beveridge
Last edited March 29, 2020
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